BORDERLINE DISSOCIATIVE DISORDER

And the Threat of Self Dissolution

Materialism is the condition of being boxed into the Hindbrain survival brain due to a real or imaginary perception of lack, fear, threat, rivalry or attack. Materialism is the absence of the higher dimensions of awareness beyond the adaptive, mathematical and linguistic left hemisphere for navigating the Borg world. The denser, malformed and toxic the human body is the more opaque to spiritual light it becomes...thus higher realms and complexities are not experienced or perceived. Spirit is then known only as words, symbols and pathetic rituals. The spiritually deprived individual is ALWAYS in a state of lack and deprivation meaning that the anterior cingulate cortex (ACC) is always on high alert. Self/other judgement is the default mode of the survival brain in primate societies. 

Dominant/Submissive, punishment/reward parenting or leadership is about obeying orders, valuing known facts, adhering to best practices and not questioning leaders. The mental pressure to obey the rule of law and the guilt derived from breaking the law keeps the judicial brain center on high alert. The judicial center in the brain is the anterior cingulate cortex (ACC) is the frontal part of the cingulate cortex that resembles a "collar" surrounding the frontal part of the corpus callosum. Tension within the ACC around the Corpus Callosum means that there is an electromagnetic barrier between the soulful right side of the brain and the ego-adaptative brain on the left. 

Thus families that are ruled by terror and shame have reduced capacity for creative innovation preventing them from growing out of their primitive condition. Civilizations ruled by terror and shame insure that the population never rise far above flatland materialism, and hence remain as slaves to feed the all consuming economic machine. Materialism is the absence of the higher dimensions of awareness beyond the adaptive, mathematical and linguistic left hemisphere for navigating the Borg world. The denser, malformed and toxic the human body is the more opaque to spiritual light it becomes...higher realms are not experienced or perceived. Spirit is then known only as words, symbols and pathetic rituals.

Moving beyond the Hindbrain conditioning of the past requires innovation, imagination and transformation. Creativity calls for the freedom and courage to ask questions, experiment, present proposals and make mistakes. A parent or leader who supports creativity must be surprising, inspiring and challenging in a positive way, especially one who uses motivation and intellectual stimulation to support growth. Businesses, organizations and countries are under the same psychological influence regarding whether they are innovators, hence resilient to change, or dictatorial and shaming and thus vulnerable to stagnation and regression.

Detachment occurs if the attachment wiring is not established in the first 3 years of life. Circumcision, the breakdown of the nuclear family, working moms, rejection, stress, unstable homes, malnutrition and a zillion other factors lead to poor quality attachment, empathy and compassion wiring. This is exactly the type of autistic human needed in a dystopian totalitarian society....where ultimately babies will be gestated in vats and will have no parents or family life. Without healthy bonding and attachment there is simply detachment, negative bonding and enmeshment. Enmeshment is misplaced ownership of others in the group because individuals are not granted sovereignty or ownership of themselves.

Each individual is sovereign unto their own right and not under ownership or duress of anybody else…even themselves. The sovereign individual is a creation via distillation of the universe herself. Where there is domination and subjection of individual will, where the capacity to follow the call of the universe is overridden or dismissed…sickness and un-wholeness results. The codependent dominant-submissive family model breeds children who are enmeshed, without a solid core of personal will…therefore their lives are not private property, but are open for public use.

One's boundaries are weak (enmeshed) because the family hasn't differentiated beyond Hindbrain consciousness due to the stress of a dominance/submission social context. Deprivation, neglect, sibling competition, silence, sexual abuse, rejection, absence of higher philosophical and psychological teaching...but mostly the rejection of the sovereign self of the individual family members is what keeps the codependent enmeshment and the wounded self in place.

The unspoken agreement in the Hindbrain codependent family is that the individuals are not allowed to have a personal-private self, and that each must be selfless for the good of the whole. However the way that the consciousness in the universe works is that the individual only has anything of great value to offer others if they are living from their cosmic core and expressing their unique genius. Without boundariedness there is no real inter-relationship and the constant threat of imminent dissolution of the Self makes selflessness a dangerous suicidal act.

 The unboundried coreless individual is always under constant threat to life…because they have no real life of their own. Unprincipled predators and parasites are attracted to these waifs and wanderers for they know that in the absence of majestic solidity the “dispossessed” can be easily manipulated to do their will. Once the coreless child grows up and leaves the family context, the world simply becomes another extended family representing the constant eminent threat of self-dissolution. 

A family of unboundried individuals who are under constant threat of self-dissolution from enmeshment…is a source of compounded ongoing suffering, with no possibility of healing, wholing and relief within the communal context of borderline codependence. Competition and conflict then arise because the collective is comprised of weak, unsupported identities in a deprivation state. Control of the subsequent chaos is maintained through subjection, intimidation, silence, shaming and threat...further undermining the self-system of the individuals.

This intolerable condition is compounded by the gender prejudice of the sadomasochistic dominant-submissive culture at large…in that parents are apt to emotionally reject girl babies simply because they are not boys. So females often grow up with the stigma of disappointment and shame that they are not boys…for if they were boys they would be accepted and loved for who they are…that is, they would be granted greater sovereignty and respect for their selfhood.

 “Enmeshment leads to shame and shame often leads to depression, anxiety, alcoholism, drug abuse, eating disorders, compulsive gambling, sexual addiction, and other addictive behaviors as well as family violence.”

http://www.counseling4less.com/blog/what-is-enmeshment

“A nurturing family is one that empowers family members to have a strong sense of self. Children are loved and drawn into the nurturing center of the family–but without losing their sense of self and outward mission. In an enmeshed family, children are loved and drawn into the center–but often at the expense of their sense of self and outward mission.” http://www.counseling4less.com/blog/what-is-enmeshment

"If the resistant egos addictive-substance suppression of the liver is lifted, the liver awakens to its full function. Then the right side of the body and the right-brain comes out its submission and latency. Normally in this culture our liver and right-brain are greatly repressed in order that we may avoid our ESP, truth, creativity, emotion and intuition. The lifting of this repression would be tangibly felt as energy-bliss-awareness rising through the right side of the body. A sign that this transformation is occurring would be the radical relaxation of the right neck and shoulder, with obvious changes to the personality and adaptive functioning including increased emotion and psychic abilities." Jana Dixon, Biology of Kundalini 

We need to keep working at it till everyone is free. I don't think most of us have gotten anywhere at all...and one wonders how far one can get as an outcast when the family system is exactly the same. Unfortunately there is no real support for breaking free of the presovereign trap in current mainstream culture that is immersed in the paradigm of the master/slave, and where social power is sort after as a counterfeit replacement for the true spiritual power achieved through realization and expression of the sovereign self in our daily lives. A life lived not in running from who we really are, but in celebration of it. Being true to ourselves is to respect all life. 

If the sense of “right and wrong” of the judicial brain has been on high alert throughout childhood, as adults we tend to be locked into a condition that constricts our thought via self-censoring, criticism, rejection, repression, hypervigilance, suspicion and fear of imminent punishment from the world. The core self, rather than being a safe and secure conduit between cosmos and self is a source of ongoing torment and unrest. The exhausted anterior cingulate cortex (ACC) prevents cross communication between the hemispheres, which would otherwise provide the holistic perspective and transcendence needed to settle and relax the organism in order to heal the judicial center. Neuron receptors at the synapses have become inverted and neurotransmitters depleted by excess stress chemicals and oxidation. Thus consciousness has little capacity for depth, embrace, expanse, novelty, compassion, and vision of a transcendent future.

How to heal the core brain so that we may come home to planet earth and experience an ever more beneficent world free from the torment of a hyper-judicial center? Cross lateral movement, sound, light and sensation does exercise dual hemispheric function. Meditation, yoga and breathing will calm down a “hot and bothered” brain. However there is one Inner Art exercise that deals directly with the anterior cingulate cortex (ACC) that acts like a laser to clean the judicial center of metabolic dross. The Inner Candle is particularly useful if we have been exposed to past or present competition, harassment or evil projection by a hostile social environment. The more we try and assert our “goodness” in an evil world through self-justification, self-segregation, self-righteousness and the arrogant superiority…the more we play into the rampant social sickness of the shame and blame game that the Hindbrain society promulgates with its the fetishisation of good and evil.

THE INNER CANDLE MEDITATION

“The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.” Jesus the Christ, Matthew 6:22 

--> Compassion, the Fair Witness, and the Uraeus is the overlord function of the sovereign (the Übermensch—overman or superman) whereby we stop wasting energy in self/other judgment, rejection and blame. When you understand the human condition, there is no one to blame anyways so forgiveness is not applicable. Perhaps the best brain-wipe for getting rid of blame/guilt/shame is the Inner Candle. By sending a rush of energy through the core of the brain we can erase the stuck record of hurt/blame tapes and self-righteous indignation in our judicial center the tissue around the corpus callosum—the Anterior Cingulate Cortex (ACC).

Do the Inner Smile, feeling the jaw as a curved dish. On this dish imagine a 3” diameter candle rising as a column through the brain. With lids closed turn your eyeballs up at the top of your head to observe the flame of the imaginary candle. Inner Candle is like a force field of strength and uplift that can be done throughout the day, even while walking, in the bath or anytime as a method of generating Presence and a priori happiness. You can generate a permanent Inner Candle, remembering to look skyward, eyes open, to feed on the light and glory of your own being.

The Inner Candle is immediate restorative justice that resets and harmonizes the attraction/aversion judgment center, the anterior cingulate cortex (ACC). The people’s court is the lower ACC, while the Supreme Court is the upper ACC in association with the prefrontal lobes. By cleaning out the stored charge from past abuse, conflict, humiliation, injustice and rejection we can proceed without the fragmentation caused by the perpetual shock-stress. In particular, the Inner Candle in association with the Core SuperCharger produces a regime change in the core of our worldview.

One of the signs that we still have work to do in defusing our agency court center (ACC) is the sense of double bind that disempowers forward movement due to the pervasive sense of Fucked-if-you-do/Fucked-if-you-don’t. The anterior cingulate cortex governs fairness, jurisprudence, justice, rightness and goodness. A double bind is an emotionally distressing dilemma in communication in which an individual receives two or more conflicting messages, so that no matter which directive is followed, the response will be construed as incorrect. The need to be “right” makes fools of us all, while the need to “BE” gets lost in the neurosis of endless manipulation, control and effort.

To work through the double binds and impossible dilemmas associated with family/work/romance...basically it is a matter of raising your own energy, grounding, aerobics, movement and actively following your Muse vocation. The double bind is a spanner in the neurological works that ultimately leads to hopelessness, depression and fatigue, so it is best to push into it by putting a more concerted effort into self-care and your true life’s work. Not everyone can see things on our level, nor operate on our level of morality and integrity…so if others cannot handle a greater truth we have to leave them to their own devises and move on to shining horizons.

• Complex Inner Candle Meditation

The Inner Candle can be done while on your back listening to binaural music with ear phones on…and you can do the mind-meld pressure lock with both thumbs at the outer eye sockets and the index fingers together in a triangle at the top of the forehead. Again remember to let the body go into complete jellyfish state.

 * Jana offers training and certification in the Inner Arts offered to personal and collective healing. jananz@hotmail.com