Power-over and its associated power-under is so toxic to the
nervous system over time that it can literally throw your life into suspended
animation, resulting in the inability to move on to more healthy social
territory. Sin projection, fault finding, sexual harassment, being dumped with a superior’s
workload, bullying, parasitism, codependent manipulation, enabling or whatever
form the power differential takes wears away at our moral fiber. Our growth and
motivation becomes so stunted that it takes superhuman strength to break the
spell and recover our dignity enough to leave.
Because of the breakdown of the neuroendocrine system within hierarchical power structures that reduce the creativity and dignity of both top
and bottom dog it is obvious that these animal based forms of social discourse
are incompatible with an evolving humanity. This corrosive social dis-ease
perpetuates itself in a zillion permutations throughout our life if conscious
attention is not bought to the origins of sovereign boundary infringement and
the freeze response it creates. Obviously the greatest imprinting influences on
our psyche were the degree of equity our parents achieved in their
relationship, and our birth order with regard to our siblings.
It is the combination of parental equity AND birth order
that counts. For if the parents are not on a conscious even playing field with
regards to freedom, finances and awareness, then the subordinate (usually the
mother) will impart inclusion/exclusion influences and play favorites with her
children in order to make herself feel more secure. This leaves both the
preferred and the unpreferred child with deep unconscious scaring around the
need to be "good, accepted, valued and preferred." Thus essentially stealing
the child's soul to serve the egoic and deficiency needs of the parents. The
children then become borderline and are condemned to focus on outer value
judgment and competition having never been granted the right to exist in their
own right, but were always “compared” rather than loved. Being “compared” with
others rather than simply “appreciated” for being ourselves is the very bedrock
foundations of the colossal aberration
of Borg civilization.
We arrive in a world somewhat as a tabula rasa (blank slate)
within pre-existing karmic drama, which we must learn then to deal with on our
own from the get-go. The vulnerability of this innocent unsophistication means
that the first defense we achieve against the terror of not being treated with
love and respect is to “freeze. “ That is to depress, desensitize,
devitalize, dull, frustrate, incapacitate, lessen, mute, numb, and paralyze ourselves. This
reduction in feeling, emotion and consciousness lessens the pain and the shear
terror of oblivion, of not being seen, met...of not “Being” on the deepest
level. Having been born into a presovereign culture we are not granted a unique
spirit and acknowledged as an independent entity with equal rights and
protections. For in our in tabula rasa state we only really know ourselves through the responses and eyes of others. In order to rise above the freeze response
with regard to toxic power differential we must come to really know ourselves beyond the responses and eyes of others.
Since the freeze response is an “absence” that produces the
suspended animation and disanimation of our being, we may become spellbound and stopped
in our tracks, unable to move away from the hegemonic,
subversive, predatory or parasitic forces that ensnare us. Disanimating means to deprive of spirit, to dishearten, the privation
of life, to discourage, or the depression of spirits. It takes spirit to BE
spirit rather than a slave to the reality and dictates of others. If we are looking for anything FROM the world we will be
screwed and turned upside down. Meeting the world from a prior existing
fullness, then we are free from the push-pull of chaos, hunger and horrendous
distress.
Knowing ourselves through Other can only lead to endless
distraction, disaster and wasted life. Thus the sovereign must reach inward to
the place where the first impulses for “outer fulfillment” arose. As we feel
into the gapping wound of our unloved, unseen infant we can fill this void with
light, love and warmth. This fundamental separation, discord and confusion is
undone once the individual stops looking for connection, validation, security,
love, approval etc...on the outside, and instead gives these to their self. The
freeze response absolutely MUST be bled off through aerobic exercise and rigorous physical activity like
running, gymnastics, boxing, wrestling, judo,
Brazilian jujitsu, karate, taekwondo, jumping, weightlifting, throwing, and
swimming.
The physical exercise reduces the cortisol damage and
produces the hormones and neurotransmitters that feed personal drive, dignity
and life! If the body's generative powers are at optimum, disorder and chaos do
not have the upper hand. Lest we be held in permanent bondage to our oppressors
in a deathly, frozen, apoplectic, lifeless standstill…we must shake, rattle and
roll! Stoic pride in our ability to handle abuse is merely a lack of self-love.
For if we really loved ourselves and life itself we would not allow ourselves
to be stalled, standing
static in stagnant waters,
deadlocked in a deathly game of self-abandonment.
Taking in the Good
"We are constantly trying to look behind ourselves
and around ourselves to find security, whereas our security is in the blooming
of our creation." Andreas Mannal.
Joseph Goldstein's emphasis on "taking in the
good," points to the rewiring of insecure and negative patterns in the
brain through deliberate self-directed mindfulness. This helps overcome the
brain's negativity bias that has resulted from eons of evolutionary survival.
Taking in the good, through the felt-sense of unconditional pleasure and
well-being helps to reshape our implicit memory and cellular frequency to
counter this negativity bias. Continually remembering and poising to "take
in the good" throughout the day, in association with the relaxing the
tongue and the inner smile, savoring and sustaining the feeling tone of
positive experience, puts us increasingly in a regenerative and receiving state
in which wholebrain and visionary consciousness is our native state along with
enhanced neuroplasticity and quality of life.
In association with the “audacity” to claim dominion over
our own feeling state and our peptides of emotion is the “mindfulness” needed
to cultivate higher feeling tones than those we were habituated to while we
were still highly reactive to the society around us. Toward this end for a time
we need to focus on the practice of “Taking in the Good.” We have no choice but
to opt for cellular appreciation of the Good, for we know that everything we do
to try and make ourselves feel secure using primitive irrational means, only
makes us feel less secure. Security is an inside job! Salvation has never been
closer at hand than now. Only in this moment can we come home to receive our Self.
Social toxic shock takes All our
energy just to tread water and stay afloat. Thus we must systematically
overcome our addiction to the terror and betrayal of socio-pain in order to
regrow our own sovereign neuroendocrine system that is transcendent of our
negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset. We can use “Taking in
the Good” practice, and rigorous exercise, Phi-energizing lifestyle, the Inner
Arts and enlightened community to evolve beyond our reactivity to not being
acknowledged as a sovereign and AWAKE HUman BEing. People will only feel they
can pull one over on us if we are too asleep to protest and cry fowl, or too
apathetic to step out of harms way.
If we consistently put ourselves in
harms way, and become perennially distracted by chasing after figments of
acceptability, and acting out the unpreferred child's dire need to be
"good, valued and preferred”...we remain in a permanent toxic shock
syndrome throughout our life. We retrigger ourselves again and again if we seek
and outer security and outer confirmation of self-worth. Thus a consciously
applied practice of free expression, coordination, insight and felt-sense
meditation and the whole smorgasborg of regenerative and sovereign arts and
sciences is needed to take full control of our mind to realize our Always
Already Wholeness, and stop our decent into the quagmire of Borg supremacy.
The inner child is not so much wounded as he or she is
lonely for us to get out of our own way and come home to the pleasure of the
alchemical marriage within. That is why sovereignty is the only real
spirituality because only we can build enough trust and faith between our adult
and our inner child...only we ourselves can reach across the divide of
self-abandonment. If we attempt to get help to form this inner connection then
we are indebted and dependent on Other. The nature of communion is that it is
solely our unique divine spark that must reach out and volunteer to come into
atunement with the Uni-Verse. You can thus see that in order to achieve
spiritual satisfaction and satiation with the light we must "drop"
our pain, hurt, resistance, and anger at never have been spiritually
"met." As we fill up on the mana of our Self we loosen the bondage of
"isms"...of gender, race, class, country, species that have locked us
into a certain pattern of repetitive nightmare. Once we have met and accepted
our Self, we can then offer this greatest of gifts to others…of actually seeing
them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YcgNJ7cgDVs
“When you are in
that place, and I am in that place in me then we are One!” Namasté
